updates

I’ve been feeling really down these past several days.  My back has been getting better but it still hurts.  I ran on Monday night for the first time in a week: three slow miles.  When I was done I felt achy pain but nothing sharp so I went home and stretched and iced it.  My understanding of the situation is that my psoas muscle (which connects from the lower back to the top of the thigh bone) is really tight on the right side which is causing my SI joint in my pelvis to be out of whack, which led to the ligament sprain.  Essentially everything that is connected to my pelvis is in some way irritated – a domino effect.  All the muscles around my lower back are tight and sore.  Grrrr….

The good news is that yes I KNOW it could be a LOT worse.  The bad news is that it is making me feel depressed anyway.  This whole experience of getting back to “normal” after having a baby has been quite a journey.  I feel like this must be in some ways what it will feel like when I’m getting up in years…struggling to be strong and to prevent injuries like this.

On another note, I am still sticking to the sugar-free and gluten-free diet.  This is miraculous, considering how sad I have felt.  I did eat an entire bag of tortilla chips the other day though…yes they are free of sugar and gluten but they are not healthy.   I have to laugh about it though – sometimes food is comforting and eating large amounts of it is comforting!  I weighed myself on Monday and there were no changes, up or down.  Since I was sick and didn’t get any running in for a whole week, I am calling it a success that I didn’t gain any weight.  I’m feeling good about my food choices and letting the tortilla chip binge slide.  No need to kick myself while I’m down!

Here’s to a better week this week…and to picking myself back up, emotionally and physically.  It is a beautiful day and there is much to celebrate and be thankful for.  I’m going to focus on the sunny side of life today and try my best not to eat another entire bag of tortilla chips :o)