Tuesday, December 21, 2010

wondering, trying not to wonder

I think I have to face it...my running can hardly be called running anymore at this point in my pregnancy.  I'm almost 35 weeks and I don't even want to know how much weight I've gained.  I'm sure I will be close to or maybe even over the 40 pound mark by the time my baby comes.  I keep telling myself not to worry, that the weight is all going to come off and that I will feel light and free again when I run.  But there is a part of me that is scared, that is worrying and wondering...

The last time I had a baby was over 4 years ago.  I had just turned 30.  Now I am close to 35.  Things are different with my body.  Even though I was possibly in the best shape of my adult life when I got pregnant this time,  I am older.  Not OLD, but OLDER.  I'm getting these nasty looking purple veins all through my legs.  In my ankles, up my calves, behind my knees and thighs.  I try not to look but the other day on accident I caught site of my backside and gasped.  I look like an old lady minus the wrinkles.  This is a genetic thing...my mom has these veins and so did my oldest sister (she had laser surgery to correct them).  I had yucky veins in my ankles when I was pregnant with my son but after he was born they went away.  Maybe that will happen again this time?  Maybe they will go away??  I can only hope...I must accept it though if they don't.

What is it going to feel like - physically - after this baby is born?  How long will it take before I can run - really RUN - again?

I'm not wishing these next 5 weeks away, I'm not.  Feeling the baby move inside me is the most magical feeling.  I love it.  Buuuuuut, I am also really excited to not be carrying all this extra weight anymore.  Getting off the couch is ridiculous.  Carrying laundry up and down the stairs is a joke.  Making all the beds in my house in the morning leaves me breathless.  And to think that less than a year ago I was running marathons and 10 miles was "easy" ... wowzah!!!  The change has been gradual but drastic.

In my heart I know that after my baby is born I can - and will - make gradual changes again.  Sure, it will take a lot of work, sacrifice and dedication.  But it will be worth it.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Go-Lite Hydration Giveaway and Paying it Forward

One of my favorite people is hosting a great giveaway on her blog - Dorothy at Mile Posts.  I entered of course but in the spirit of the holidays I wanted to share it with you guys too.  I haven't ever tried these water bottles but I intend to and what better way to try one than when you win one for free!?

To enter Dorothy's giveaway click here for the simple instructions: http://www.mile-posts.blogspot.com/.  If you don't already follow her blog I highly recommend that you do.  She is a true inspiration and a treasure of advice on running and balancing life with three kids.

Dorothy is also asking that we vote for her in a contest to win a special handbag.  She entered a photo of her new sweet (and soooo cute) baby boy Colton and if she gets the most votes she'll win an awesome bag.  All you have to do is become a fan of Treesje Handbags on Facebook and vote for her photo in the contest by "liking" her picture.   As my 5 year old says "easy peasy, lemon squeezy!" and of course doesn't it feel good to do something nice for someone??

Happy Friday!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

finding a bright side

the other day i found out that i did not get a spot in this year's cherry blossom ten miler.  i was sad.  like really sad...i let it get me down for a little while.  i called my sister to vent and then i decided i needed to let it go.  it was ok to let it get me down but i wasn't going to let it KEEP me down.  so i decided i'm going to wait until feb 1st, when they start allowing for number transfers, and see if i have any luck with that.  if not, it was not meant to be and i need to trust and be ok with that.  i will find another race to train for after my baby is born.

this past weekend i was signed up for the Jingle All the Way 10K in DC.  i was planning to walk/run it with my friend and neighbor, lorrie.  the forecast was for a high of 36 degrees and 100% chance of rain though so we decided we weren't going to do it.  that morning instead i woke up and went down to my basement and got on my treadmill.  i am so grateful to have that thing.  i did a walk/run combo for a few miles and felt good about it.

this time of year is crazy for all of us, i know.  for me, it is hard to budget my time and make exercise a priority when i'm not training for something.  it is especially hard at 33 weeks pregnant.  but i am doing it when i can, as much as i can.  i know that after the baby comes i'll be presented with a whole slew of new challenges with time management and making "me" a priority.  i find myself imagining strategies every day but in reality i know that i will have to just roll with it when the time comes.  i know running will be a major factor for me and i have put some things in place to make it easier for me to make time for that (such as getting a treadmill).  it is going to be about being in the present moment, not dwelling on things i can't control and being grateful for all that i have and am able to do.  i will be more than ok.  i will be so blessed.

my baby is due in 6 and a half weeks!  i am so excited.  next week my sister alissa and her family come to town for christmas.  she is due on the same day as me.  i can't wait for us to be together.  it is so amazing that the two of us are having babies at the same time!  sharing our pregnancies has been such a blessing.  we've been experiencing the same kinds of feelings at the same time.  when i call her with excitement or sadness, she is there and feeling it to.  it's wild to think that after this visit the next time we see one another we will both have little babies.  when she's here we want to take photos together to capture this special time.  we'll both be 35 weeks pregnant with big baby bellies!  i'll be sure to share some of them here.

happy hump day everyone.  have a great day!

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

i hope i hope i hope

well, i just signed up for the lottery for the cherry blossom 10 miler.  if i get in, it will be my first race since having my baby and my last before i turn 35 (my birthday is exactly one week after race day).  i pushed "register" and then sent it off to cyberspace and the powers that be.  i am hoping with all of my heart that i get a spot.  i love this race and the energy that goes along with it.  even though it's always super-crowded and crazy, being a part of it always makes me happy.

other news - today i can start saying "i am due next month" since it is the first of december!  even though i am not due til the end of january (the 28th), for some reason saying my due date is next month is really fun to say and i am able to convince myself that it is closer than it really is.  whatever works to keep me positive .... i find that looking on the bright side of things is definitely the right perspective for me these days, and always.

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